i need...

to write something amazing! It's almost like a beast inside me that I haven't been feeding and if I don't act soon it will start to eat away at me. I can't really explain it. It's just a hunger I have for beauty. Beautiful words, beautiful thoughts, beautiful feelings, beautiful sights. i NEED them, and so far i've had to settle with beautiful words and thoughts, because beautiful feelings and sights are never in my reach. I fear that i'll never be fully satisfied, because everthing revolves around money. You get an education to get a good job to earn money. Of what i've seen it's never done anyone any good. I've seen people work so much and never truly get anything back. It makes me extremley sad. As if i were staring into the future at myself. Working all day and never being able to go to the places i want and to experince the things that i want because i never have enough money. Well to hell with money. All it ever causes is pain. All i need would be easily found if it weren't crushed everday by society, forced to hide in the smallest corners of the world. Only reachable for those who truly know what it looks like. I know though that i will always look for it, the beauty of this world that has nothing to do with society. And everything that makes us human.