photography

i feel inspired right now!
:D
im going to go take some pictures!
but i wish i had some models..or something.
a boy and a girl!
oooooo...i have so many cool ideas for that right now!
okay, wish me luck on my photography adventure.
maybe i'll post some of them later.


<3

stay mine

"i don't know what else to say [to you]
but i couldnt end this day [without you]
so don't go away,
i need you to stay.
fingers intertwined,
please stay mine.
forever.
hearts never crashed as violently as ours,
those stars shine bright with envy,
send me your love in a bottle tossed to the sea.
i'll get it eventually.
please don't leave.
never."

time

Today i was seeing how far the calendar on my phone would go.
It went to December 31, 2069.
I would be about 87 years old.
And as those days, weeks, months, and years were passing by my screen i was thinking.
What will happen to me between now and then?
Will i get a good job? How many times will i fall in love? Who will i spend the rest of my life with? Will we be happy? Will i get married? Will i have kids? How many? Will they be happy and healthy? Who do i know that will die? When will they die? How will they die? When will i die? How will i die? Will i get to visit Europe? Will i get to do ALL the things i want to do? Will i witness another world war? Will i witness the beggining of peace? How far will technology go after im gone? Will there be an apocolypse? Will i be around for it? Whats after death? Whats before life? Whats beyond the universe?
Half of these questions i will NEVER know the answers.

Time.
We don't all have an equal amount of it.
We don't know if it will come to a screaching stop or slowly fade away.




we were never shaking, only breaking.

dreams

I wish i could control what i dream of!
I know about a billion things i would want to dream about! :D



i dont even really have anything to say right now..
so why am i doing this?
haha.


so you like my new picture at the top?
The Apology by Mark Ryden
:D
i wish i could paint like him!
<3

mistakes

i've learned from other people and there mistakes. Also from people in books. I've seen so many situations and there outcomes and what would have happened had they gone the other way. They act out of fear...and then regret it.

I won't do that.

Im terrified!! but i KNOW what will happen if i turn away now. I'll lose the hope of having everything i've ever wanted! Just because i was scared of the unknown!? That's not good enough of an excuse!

I just wish there wasn't always a catch...