false hopes

They give us false hopes. They tell us how great things are going to be and how happy you will be. Then none of it is right, as if it were a cruel lie to make you do what they want. I don't like this. The closer i get to it the uneasier i feel. I wish i could go in reverse. I wish i could leave everything and live the way i want too. I don't know whats going to happen.
Officially Alexander Supertramp is my hero. He got one thing right and one thing wrong. He was right, society is wack. He was wrong, you need other people to be happy. I wish i could have met the man. I would have followed him....

Monsters

The monsters come in all different forms. Some easily banished and others that only hide in a dark corner and stare. Waiting for the second when your mind starts to wander and your guards crumple to their knees. That’s when they return, slithering past your fallen guards to be front and center. Oh, how they love the spotlight! They grow in it, feeding off the naked fear that consumes your every thought. They’ll never stop, not until your guards rise firmly to their feet. Will they ever? As they lie on the floor like broken dolls. Will they ever rise again? Surely the monsters must tire of their cruel games, but oh how they never sleep! They never sleep….
By: Amanda Sue (me)


You like?

money

I hate how money motivates everything people do. There are WAY more important things than money and it makes me sad that some people don't relize that. Unfortunatly money has become a necisity. I live in the wrong century. I wish I had a time machine so I could go where I should have been.
It smells like onions in my house..i didn't know we were having onions for dinner.

"His voice was shaking--heavens, what a plague love was! Anyone who claimed otherwise had never felt that wretched trembling of the heart."-Inkspell page 505

oh,the spiders!

okay,there really are no spiders, but every once in a while a loose strand of my hair will tickle on my arm. And for the life of me i think it's a spider for like 5 seconds! So a few times daily i have a mini heart attack. I don't think that is good for my poor little heart.

On another note, we are having linguisa(spelling?) sandwiches for dinner. I'am, what is the term...stoked! I'am stoked for dinner!


Who wants to buy me some books? ;)

where are the men with brooms?

I have this notion that i have to be swept off my feet. I watched too many Disney movies as a child and read too many books now. That's probably the reason. I just wish my heart wasn't set on those type of ways of falling in love.


Oh, well. Time will tell.

Inkheart

I love that book! It's just so wonderfully written!

"A fireball hung over Elinor's lawn, a bright, blazing globe of fire. It ate away at the darkness like a living thing. And it was so big, Meggie felt sure everything around it would go up in flames: the grass, the deck chair, and Dustfinger himself....He made the fire climb high in the air, as if to set the stars alight. Then he lit a second torch and ran it's flame over his bare arms. He looked as happy as a child playing with a pet animal. The fire licked at his skin like something living, a darting, burning creature that he had befriended, a creature that caressed him and danced for him and drove the night away."-Inkheart page 67

Oh, how i wish i were in a book!

down the shitter

That's were everything has been going! School just likes to steal my happiness and-like i said-flush it down the shitter. Hmm...i seem to have some sort of bad luck. I should really look into acquiring some sort of lucky charm.

(if only that delicious cereal could solve my bad luck.)

i need...

to write something amazing! It's almost like a beast inside me that I haven't been feeding and if I don't act soon it will start to eat away at me. I can't really explain it. It's just a hunger I have for beauty. Beautiful words, beautiful thoughts, beautiful feelings, beautiful sights. i NEED them, and so far i've had to settle with beautiful words and thoughts, because beautiful feelings and sights are never in my reach. I fear that i'll never be fully satisfied, because everthing revolves around money. You get an education to get a good job to earn money. Of what i've seen it's never done anyone any good. I've seen people work so much and never truly get anything back. It makes me extremley sad. As if i were staring into the future at myself. Working all day and never being able to go to the places i want and to experince the things that i want because i never have enough money. Well to hell with money. All it ever causes is pain. All i need would be easily found if it weren't crushed everday by society, forced to hide in the smallest corners of the world. Only reachable for those who truly know what it looks like. I know though that i will always look for it, the beauty of this world that has nothing to do with society. And everything that makes us human.

Shitty McShitbag

I DON'T HAVE LUNCH WITH BRITTANY....AGAIN! Im sooo ANGRY I could just spit!! Who decides that crap!? Seriously! They should let us pick at least 2 people we want to have lunch with and then give us the same lunch. At least the Seniors should get to do that! AND I didn't get into Piano! How the heck am i supposed to play the piano on a Disney Cruise Ship now!?! Thanks for screwing up my future THS!

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