New Years!! 2009

It was very fun!!

NEW YEARS EVE- Was super duper fun!! :D Me, megan, and brittany had a bonfire with my dad! Roasting marshmellows was an entertaining event, especially when megan and brittany would completely ingulf their marshmellow in flames! We ate yummy food and watched the MTV events. Attacking eachother was a popular activity as well. And for some reason i was always getting ganged up on and practically tortured! haha. Strangely megan was taking off my socks as well. :O Brittany and I watch ed as my dad set off fireworks! That was really fun for some reason! :D OH! And Brittany taught me how to play Mary Had A Little Lamb on the piano! I feel so skilled in the musical world now! Thank You Brittany! Haha. Next i will learn a piece by Beethoven possibly! yeah right! I wish! And the first movie i watched of 2009 was Clueless with my best friend! That is actually a very good movie! :D

And that was how i spent the last few hours of 2008! :]

NEW YEARS DAY- Was also extremely fun! I spent the whole day with Josh! :) We went and picked him up around 9 and when we got home we watched parts of Bring It On All Or Nothing with my dad and megan. That was fun! Then when my mother got home she took us out to the mall. Where we shopped and ate. We then went to Sonic and got more food. lol. Josh made me try a vanilla sprite and they are absolutely delicious! I want one right now! We then walked over to the World Market and we spent about an hour in there looking at all the cool things! I love that store! We bought Pocky and chocolate paper money! Josh is now addicted to Pocky! Haha. We then went to Best Buy and looked at the laptops and played with the piano. We then went back to my house and walked the railroad tracks, ate dinner, watched megan spit up moutain dew (LMAO!), walked around outside, came in and layed on my bed and talked, and then we took him home! It was a really great day!! :D Minus the leaving him part....

Bringing in 2009 was the best! I hope the rest of the year is just the same! :D

I have a feeling this year is going to either make me or break me. It will definetly be the year my life starts....

life

is a very entertaining game! Especially when your with your best friend and you have the hiccups! :D
i lost the game of life. :( haha.


hmm..real life though is pretty good!!
School is the same as always, VERY repetitive and EXTREMELY boring. But what can you do? Theres only 5 months left of it and im done. That thought excites me yet scares the crap out of me at the same time! Mostly it just scares me though....
I don't even want to think about it, so i won't.....for now.
However, it makes me feel better that i have Josh and Brittany! I dont know what i would do without either of them! I know they'll help me with my fears. I wish i could do the same....

Well SHOWER TIME!!
so long...

wow!

I havent blogged in a long while!
but im back!! :D
and things are great!!!!!!


haha.
BYE!

photography

i feel inspired right now!
:D
im going to go take some pictures!
but i wish i had some models..or something.
a boy and a girl!
oooooo...i have so many cool ideas for that right now!
okay, wish me luck on my photography adventure.
maybe i'll post some of them later.


<3

stay mine

"i don't know what else to say [to you]
but i couldnt end this day [without you]
so don't go away,
i need you to stay.
fingers intertwined,
please stay mine.
forever.
hearts never crashed as violently as ours,
those stars shine bright with envy,
send me your love in a bottle tossed to the sea.
i'll get it eventually.
please don't leave.
never."

time

Today i was seeing how far the calendar on my phone would go.
It went to December 31, 2069.
I would be about 87 years old.
And as those days, weeks, months, and years were passing by my screen i was thinking.
What will happen to me between now and then?
Will i get a good job? How many times will i fall in love? Who will i spend the rest of my life with? Will we be happy? Will i get married? Will i have kids? How many? Will they be happy and healthy? Who do i know that will die? When will they die? How will they die? When will i die? How will i die? Will i get to visit Europe? Will i get to do ALL the things i want to do? Will i witness another world war? Will i witness the beggining of peace? How far will technology go after im gone? Will there be an apocolypse? Will i be around for it? Whats after death? Whats before life? Whats beyond the universe?
Half of these questions i will NEVER know the answers.

Time.
We don't all have an equal amount of it.
We don't know if it will come to a screaching stop or slowly fade away.




we were never shaking, only breaking.

dreams

I wish i could control what i dream of!
I know about a billion things i would want to dream about! :D



i dont even really have anything to say right now..
so why am i doing this?
haha.


so you like my new picture at the top?
The Apology by Mark Ryden
:D
i wish i could paint like him!
<3

mistakes

i've learned from other people and there mistakes. Also from people in books. I've seen so many situations and there outcomes and what would have happened had they gone the other way. They act out of fear...and then regret it.

I won't do that.

Im terrified!! but i KNOW what will happen if i turn away now. I'll lose the hope of having everything i've ever wanted! Just because i was scared of the unknown!? That's not good enough of an excuse!

I just wish there wasn't always a catch...

staring

In my dream he was just staring at me.
So this is what dreammoods.com has told me about that.

Staring:
To dream that someone is staring at you, suggests that you are hoping someone would look your way more often. It may also represent anxiety or pride.

That pretty much sums it up exactly.








no lies.

lost

why did you turn left,
when you were told to turn right?
what made you stray the wrong way?
the dark path won't always have light,
so don't take a risk if you don't need to.
I'm always here even when I seem far.
Don't raise the bar too high,
we can't all have stilts.
Stare at the sky for awhile.
Just don't turn your back on life...and everything that comes with it.


Please don't do this...